We all have our sad, heart breaking moments in life. I too have had a few. The only problem is that whenever I look at them in retrospect and try to narrate them, they come out a little funny..
They have never been funny to me, but strangely, the moment I start narrating them or putting them in words, It turns into a Raj Kapoor style tragic comedy..(Did I just make a self-congratulatory gesture here..?)
Talking of heart breaks, there are many sorts of heart breaks. They happen to you as a kid, as a little boy, as a teenager, as a grown up, as a student, as a friend, as a friend-turned-lover.
I don't think they hurt or feel so bad to everybody but there must be a lot of people out there who recognize what I mean. They are the kind of heart breaks that keep happening if you have an Over-active and Pseudo-real imagination like mine..
How each one of them can happen to you or happened to me could well be a story unto itself but its still in draft mode besides a lot else..(I just figured it out, thats the problem, just too many things remain in draft mode for me...ohh...the trials and tribulations of a thoughtful human...)
I think the 'bed of pain' part got inspired by 'Always' of Bon Jovi..I haven't done much editing with this but I think this could be a song if I had a band or something..:P
But anyways, for now, we have the lyrics..
I know commenting on Blogspot is a pain but you can use your Gmail ID for that and well...let me know if this is any good..:
WHAT I NEVER SAID
Did i say i am strong
Did i say i dont waana talk
Did i say i am not alone.
Ages passed and now i'm lying down here
On this cold flat bed of pain
Feel i was trapped for too long
In memories and that cold rain
When you went away i had no choice
but to let it slip and stop this noise
This voice in my head,this pain in my heart
that says i still need you
Still love you and will never stop.
I had to stop being weak
I had to stop showing these scars
I had to cover these wounds
and tell me that i don't care
and tell me that it'll pass
When I cried I hid behind these smiles
and the little jokes only I could see
When I cried I faced the mirror
and let that reflection laugh back on me
Did i say i dint need you
Did i say i am strong
Did i say i don waana talk
Did i say i am not alone.
This may sound more painful than one can ever feel in retrospect, but I guess this was the immediate aftermath, so not much help there in keeping it sobered..
I would love to explain the feelings behind those lines and put some more work into it.. Suggestions at modifications are welcome..Please feel free to help me out..
